EXPLORING MYSELF!!

FUTURE BELONGS TO THOSE WHO CHASE THEIR DREAMS!!

THE STORY – POWER OF MY DREAMS                        -27February’20 

IT’S IMPORTANT TO TURN OUR CAN’TS INTO CANS AND OUR DREAMS INTO PLANS!!

Life is not actually simple but full of bumpy rides. At times I experience things that I had never thought of like once;

At times I feel like I am dead within myself, my soul is dead but the only thing that responds is the brain and the body. It seems as if the inner confidence has shed like any other thing and has made me run away from all the things, away from all the burden that I can’t handle and for me running away was the best option rather than inhaling the air where I have lost the power to control my actions. It becomes difficult to face those who feel that I am worthless and the fact is that I can’t get rid of them. It’s like at times u want to prove them but you can’t because the bitter fact is that u have started doubting yourself.

 The only thing I feel like is to run away from all the problems and wish to go as far as in heaven which would probably have the safest and easiest way to escape all the problems. But then other thoughts click the mind…” Am I a coward?” and is this really the only solution to all my problems.

Taking any decision is not easy, u see millions of memories that flashback wherein there are really few good ones to cherish whereas there are others which are equally painful and the more you think of them, more do they hurt. Tears brim like anything and when u blink, trapping them is not that easy. I realized that they need to be preserved for some other better day.

So gathering all my courage and strength, I finally decided to run away from almost everything but this time not from myself but from fake memories, fake friends, and also from all such negative thoughts that hover my mind and drive me crazy. I realized that all these years I have changed and a lot, some for good and some for bad; and even wondered if I would ever come back …come back by winning the internal battle of me with myself. I nudged back and felt that it’s important to look and face all the demons which first included fighting from myself, in this so called small world.

One day somewhere out of the blue, drenched with sweat I was awakened at midnight, thinking that are dreams just dreams or will they ever be a reality to me. I myself wondered and questioned that will I ever understand the power of dreaming.  And frankly, I am still scared of the dream to make myself better, having a hope to improve what I am really afraid of and the main part to pursue and reach the success by improving myself so that one day I can proudly see myself being a young writer.

Someday fueled with power, taking the risks and facing challenges I also wanna live my dream of becoming a writer. For sure, not for becoming the best writer, best seller but really want to carve my emotions and feelings in stitched words. Till date I was unsure about which career to choose but now I know the intermingling feelings that I have and my love for writing probably has ignited the budding writer within me. Dreams are worthy to be lived for and I will surely live for my dream.

                                                                         –HITAKSHI BACHCHANI